twentyoneexx

2012-01-23T19:30:00.000+08:00

lots of love! X

2012-01-15T15:29:00.000+08:00

page 15 of 366.

happy 7th birthday to my little brother!

school's a boredom. homework. school work. co-curriculum activities.

hardly play with laptop due to school. new hair do. loving it. crush. love. friends.

additional mathematics sucks ha ha ha

proper update, soon

2012-01-01T23:06:00.000+08:00

tau tak lawa but hellooooooooooooooo it's 2012 baby

went to countdown 2012 concert. so fucking awesome because i had so much fun that no words can describe how happy i was to the extent that i abandoned my phone and had 7 unread messages. had to pick up a call around 1 plus then realising how long ive been abandoning my phone and enjoying without realising the time.

after the event we decided to go back instead of eat because i was feeling so nauseous, migraine, urge to vomit. so apologies girlfriends the after-event plan didnt work out because of me

and apologies to you because you came all the way down to actually fetch me and talk to me but i already boarded the bus, and you were stuck there because of stupid taxis

and sorry for being sucha troublesome stupid kid causing you to have such a bad day on the first day of 2012 which i really dont have to mention here what happened

oh well

two more days, less than that, till school reopens

and not even a single work is complete. oh okay

bye

mnr

2011-12-31T14:10:00.001+08:00

hello. remember me? yea i still exist

Just wish to say some stuffs in case we don't spend our 2012 together, because we had 2011 all to ourselves.

I miss you.

I miss every single bit of moment we had together.

Sitting at West Coast Park till dusk. Macdonald, French Fries. Drinking double chocolate frappe together. Starbucks. Nyum-ing your favourite biscuit. Carrying me. Our usual place. Disturbing you with my powerful fingers and nails. Bicycle rides. Movie dates. Ben&Jerry. Ice Lemon Tea.

Yea we had too much memories together, till I can't figure out what else I missed.

We fell in and out of love. Get heartbroken. Jealousy. Ignorance. Mixed feelings. Confusion. Stupid little fights.

Throughout this year, you were my lover, bestfriend, friend with benefit, enemy, stranger. I hated you, I loved you, I grind you, I punched you. Hahahaha oh well but all that are just sweet yet bitter memories.

I hope you'll remember me, and all those moments we had together cause I'll miss you. I'll miss us, RnR. And I'm crying while typing this and I have no idea why. I'll still keep the picture in my wallet. I hope you won't throw away what I gave you on your birthday, cause it cost me so fucking much and even if you don't feel like there's a need to wear it anymore, or whatever, just don't throw it away.

Sorry for never being perfect enough, for being bitchy and always overreacting. Sorry for always punching you for no reason, and sorry for whatever I did that make you regret being with me, somewhere in your life. Sorry for making your cheeks look terrible, sorry for always disturbing you. Sorry for putting so much hopes on you. Sorry for being so clingy. Sorry I don't have that ideal body, I don't have what you fetish in a girl. Sorry for always having to spend your money on me, but don't worry, I'll pay you back. I'm not so.... stupid to always expect a guy to pay for everything. Hehehehe simply said, sorry for everything

I still have so much more to say, but I can't remember much and this is already lengthy, I don't want to make it more worse.

To summarise everything up, I miss you. I miss us. I miss every single bit of our memories.

I hope you do too. :')

Till the next time, X

2011-12-28T17:53:00.000+08:00

3D2N Holiday at Malacca, I'm home! ;)

PERFECT GETAWAY. XXXX

2011-12-22T15:38:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry for being so fake on the outside by dressing up to make myself look nicer, more presentable. I wear short tight skirts and shorts to feel better of myself. I wear coloured contact lenses to make my eyes look nicer.

I'm sorry for my fucked up attitude. I'm sorry for always being bitchy. I'm sorry for judging people. I'm sorry for assuming. I'm sorry for overreacting. I'm sorry for doubting.

I'm sorry for never being good, perfect enough for anyone. I'm sorry for putting so much expectations. I'm sorry for trying so hard to make someone like me. I'm sorry for always reminiscing. I'm sorry for always holding onto the past.

I'm sorry to the people whom I always ignore when they've always been nice to me. I'm sorry for getting irritated over little things. I'm sorry for being short-tempered.

I'm sorry I'm not like anybody you want me to be, not in any way similar.

Goodbye.

Till the next time you hear from me again.

2011-12-18T20:19:00.000+08:00

I miss my colleagues. No longer working, and definitely will miss them.

Love the promoters especially xoxo

RnR

2011-12-15T18:12:00.002+08:00

If I gave you the chance, would you take it seriously this time and prove it to me and mean every single word you said on 14 December 2011?
cause you've told me the same thing quite a number of times before this year, and it didn't work out because you took me for granted, again and again because you know I wouldn't leave you just like that. I don't want the same thing to happen again this time, so if you can give me your word that you would mean it this time, you would take this chance seriously, you would not take me for granted, you would do whatever it takes to try to make it up to me, I'll give you my word that I'll give you the time to earn back my trust and make it up to me.

Anyway, Happy supposed to be first year contacting. Haha

xoxo

2011-12-13T14:41:00.001+08:00

this is for you my dear. maybe, just maybe, this is how I feel towards you.

AWESOME CLASS CHALET

2011-11-30T18:45:00.002+08:00

HALUUUUUUUU EVERYBODYYYYYYYYYYY

I just came back from class chalet @ Coasta Sands Pasir Ris.

It was so awesome that no words can describe how awesome it was. Hahaha. I forked out so much cash, but guess it was worth it :) I had so much fun. Before I head to Pasir Ris, Shahila came over to my house to help me with the stuffs. She surprised me with a slice of cake from Coffee Bean and a Ferrero Rocher t16 for my birthday. Hehe thank you very much! Train-ed to Pasir Ris then cabbed to Coasta Sands Pasir Ris. Chilled while waiting for others, and the bbq begin! Nina told me she wouldn't be coming but she actually lied because she wanted to surprise me! Awwww. I hugged her and it made me want to cry! Lalalala plan was to have a advance birthday surprise for two of my friends, but they included me in without me knowing tho my birthday was like a week plus ago. Cake smashing on the face. Dirtied the whole chalet. Water bomb. THIS was the best highlight of the day. Nina bought a cake which was actually meant only for me but then decided to share with the other two birthday babies! Still, thanks love! We wash the floor, it was so chaotic! My camera battery died on me when the bash was about to begin! :(

Continued w bbq, walk at Pasir Ris Park w Farisman Shaiful Nina Shahila. Farisman piggybacked me too! HEHEHEHE. head back to chalet while waiting for parents to give a call. Natasha spend her second night of her chalet with us instead! Received a message at 2am from mummy, saying I could overnight. HEHE YEAY lalalala went to Macd. Took the train at 6am. Reached home around 715am and SLEEEEEP

overall I had fun. haha so much fun I don't mind doing it again! HEHEHE

PICTURES ON MY FB

I TALK TOO MUCH BUT BARE W ME OR GO AND DIE HEHE BYE

2011-11-24T19:21:00.001+08:00

Teddy Bear, 'I love you' chocolate, Hershey's Kisses, Earrings, Bangles, Skirt,Victoria Secret, Blouse, Estee Lauder.

Plus $150.

Thank you all

XOXO

21/11

2011-11-22T16:44:00.000+08:00

21/11/11

a friend fetched me from home to Jurong Point. Had double chocolate frappe while waiting for girlfriends. Met girlfriends, went to West Coast Park. Macdonald for lunch. Birthday cake time. Ate a little followed by a mini-tak-menjadi birthday bash. Wash up then bus-ed back home. Home @ 6.45pm. Went out again to meet supplier for the past AEM Mini Bazaar. Paid $18 extra due to missing consignment stuffs :( After that, met Riduan. Surprise birthday present. Walk to Jurong Point. Intention was to go to NTUC Fairprice Extra to buy my toiletries BUT the queue was exceptionally long so forget about it and bicycle ride back home!! Sat for awhile then i insisted on another bicycle ride HEHEHE home @ 11pm. Surprised with a teddy bear, a chocolate and a new bedsheet from mummy. XOXO

Minus the birthday wishes, the birthday gifts and birthday cake, it didn't really felt like my birthday. No excited feeling at all, it really felt like a normal day. But, I'm still thankful to those that remembered, that wished. Thanks girlfriends for the birthday cake and the mini-tak-menjadi birthday bash. None of my friends ever did this for me, so thank you so much. Much appreciated. Thank you for the bicycle rides. Thank you for the birthday gifts. Thank you for the birthday wishes. Appreciate it a lot. See you again 21/11 in 364 days time.

Lots of love

XOXO

unbroken

2011-11-18T16:20:00.001+08:00

Sorry to myself for being so stupid to be in love with someone who doesn't even realise how much I've done.

Sorry to myself for being so stupid to still do so much for someone who sees me as insignificant.

Sorry to myself for being so stupid to go back to the same person over and over again.

Sorry to myself for being so stupid to have stayed and hope for a miracle.

Sorry to myself for being so stupid to not have accepted reality.

Sorry to myself for holding on to your words.

I've been hoping to bump into you recently and I don't know why. It's been long since I last hope to bump into you and this time, I did.

bet this year would be the first time you won't wish me ever since the first time I knew you. :(

Forget about what I said, forget about you, forget about me, forget about it.

TTF

19/11 - AEM Mini Bazaar

20/11 - Out with Nasuha

21/11 - Out with Sarah and Shabnam

2011-11-16T17:49:00.001+08:00

i knw my face like shit but whatever. hahaha

and i knw can see my perut yg bonchet hahahha. shhh

anyway extended term is finally over, as well as amaths remedial! but still i have to go back to school tomorrow to submit my homework which was supposed to be handed up yesterday.

but the important thing is, the torture in school for now is finally over. yeay! been busy this week with AEM presentation and mini bazaar preparation as well as chalet preparation. i barely even hv time for myself :(

cant wait for this to be over and done with. going out on 21/11 yeay!

i dont know what to blog actually hahahhahaha but i bet i have something to blog on 21/11. that is if i have the time, then i will :) hehehehe

okay ttfn

2011-11-12T12:42:00.001+08:00

@ SP nw for AEM. Boring gila lalalalala

SHOPPING + MONEY = LOVE

2011-11-07T20:33:00.002+08:00

I miss this little girl!! No she's not my sister, she's my cousin. Hahaha

ANYWAY I went out with my family today to town!

Shopped at Forever21, Fourskin and Charles&Keith

Bought two tops, a jacket, skirt and jeans from F21. Slippers from Fourskin and heels from Charles&Keith

HEHEHEH YUMSZ this is love

shopping + money = love

well in my dictionary tht is hehehe.

Ate Macdonald for lunch and yes, Ben&Jerry! Hehehe

oh ya, mummy found a phone outside Heeren. so the phone is mine now! Hehehe

did i mention i love today, 07/11/11?

rawr

OH NOT TO FORGET

my 10-year-old brother bought this for me as an advance birthday gift. it might just be a snack to people but it means a lot to me because he used his pocket money to buy this and that pretty much tells me he is very thoughtful. he also bought mentos for me when he went to johor with family(excludes me) and tho he wasn't the one paying for that sweet, i pretty much am grateful cause he thought of me. :)

hehehe competition is tomorrow people! i hope i dont look like a walking dustbin and look stupid on the runway. hehehe

till the next time,

ttfn

2011-11-06T14:10:00.001+08:00

Happy 17 365r365 th Birthday = Happy 18th Birthday.

Happy legal 18th.

Have a blast, study smart and all the best in your studies, as well as life!

Anyway, I'd like to take this opportunity to thank you for everything you've done for me, especially for the first part of the year. You've played quite a big role in my life for the first part of the year and I admit I went through a lot of shits related to you this year. You were there for me everyday and every single time at the beginning of this year without fail, and I really appreciate it. We go out, confess, fight, get jealous, drifted apart but we're still talking now rather than ignoring and not talking to each other at all. I appreciate that, and every single thing you did for me. No words can express how thankful I am to you.

No matter how insignificant I am to you, I still do hope you'd appreciate what I did tho what I did may not mean more than just a birthday wish from someone special to you.

Whatever it is, have fun. My present isn't much but I hope you still like it. By the time you read this, I bet it'll be days later or maybe even weeks.

Happy legal 18th and have a blast!

XOXO

2011-11-04T20:42:00.000+08:00

I didnt get to use my laptop for three consecutive days because brothers wanted to play their game. :(

But it's okay, my laptop and I reunited today. Hahaha rawr

Anyway, 1 week of extended term = over, 6 more days left for extended term! Yeay can't wait for this shit to be over and done with YEAY

Went out on a Wednesday for an advance birthday celebration. Things didnt work out as planned, at all!! Disappointed in myself for ruining my own plan. :( It took me a lot of sacrifice, effort, money and time to do whatever that was needed. I've never spent this much on someone's birthday and this time, I did. No regrets. I just hope for an appreciation.

Oh yes. AEM officially starts yesterday. Two days of session held at BLSS, other than that, held at SP. I'm going to be worn out for sure. Eco-fashion Show in a few days time at ITE CCK.

Maybe, just maybe, November wont be as great as I expect it to be... :(

right there

2011-10-29T14:16:00.000+08:00

29 October 2011.

Exactly two years ago. Hahaha rindu.

And exactly a month more to go! :)

Extended term starting from next week onwards till 15/11/11. Timetable sucks a lot.

Extended term, AEM, Environmental Fashion Show Rehearsal and Semi-finals, preparation for someone's birthday, class chalet, my own birthday, Picnic. All this probably takes up half of my November days. I've always loved November. Hehehehe im sexcited!

And I'm pretty much contented with my result slip because for once, I passed everything. No underlines at all for my result slip, Alhamdulillah! I'm capable, I know I can do it. Frankly, I'm scared for O's now. I'm less than a year to O and yes I'm terrified NOW. I should defy my laziness.

Expect me to update every now and then starting from today! Hehehe rawr

2011-10-21T16:59:00.000+08:00

i miss this little girl a lot. it's been long since i last saw her. :(

ANW it's 21 today. 1 more month to go but I'm not excited, no idea why. Got back all my EYE results and I passed everything, Alhamdulillah! I failed SS by a mark but my Geog pulled my marks up so overall, I passed combine humanities. Not quite satisfied with overall grades as I did badly for MYE and it pulled down my grades. :( But I'm actually pretty proud of myself for the great improvement and I believe I did make some of my teachers as well as my parents proud. :)

Extended term and post-exams activities, school ends on 18 Nov. I believe. I'm actually less than a year away to O's. That is if I'm promoted.. But whatever it is, I should still continue studying.

My EYE results actually made me realise how capable I am in doing all these. Alhamdulillah. :)

okay preparing myself for extended term and some other stuffs.. hehe tata

2011-10-18T20:52:00.000+08:00

Got back some of my results today. Shall wait for report book only. Happy and sad for my results. Ah mixed feelings

today's 18/10/11. Happy 1 year Anniversary to myself. Hahaha will update my results when I get everything back? Hehehe nervous. How how how? okay probably getting back everything tmr. so i shall wait patiently and eagerly. hahah yeay!

ttfn dearies

2011-10-13T12:23:00.001+08:00

HI EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR. YEAY

results in 5 days time. gonna get myself prepared for.. the worst

exams over = out out out out out shop shop shop shop shop!!

I miss dressing myself up! huhuhu

lalalalala nothing else to say i guess

fb - activated

2011-10-04T22:02:00.001+08:00

studies.

feelings.

juggling them both at one time, stress and pressurised.

who else knows all these better than me? nobody.

I'm my own worst enemy.

Be right back.

2011-10-02T20:30:00.001+08:00

Just so you know, I do care for you and I want the best for you.

I know you won't be reading this, but I really miss you. I miss this boy I once knew.

I'm just a phone call away, a direct message away. You know you can talk to me be it about anybody. I'll be there, you know I will. I'm still your mummy, you're still my cub.

hope to ttys, xx

2011-09-27T22:01:00.000+08:00

hi. this is how i look like in school. that is where i sit in class. hahahhaahaha please do not mind my bloodyfooooool face

Anyway, I received my CAs result slip. I was contented somehow because I passed my AM though it was just a borderline pass BUT IT MATTERS AND MAKES A DIFFERENCE for me. 5 underlines. 1 F9. that's all I can remember. Muahahahaha. Pretty afraid for upcoming exams. Sat for MT Papers and EL Paper 1 and Oral already. I knew I didn't do well. I forever and always fail Malay though I'm a Malay girl learning Malay as her Mother Tongue Language. Whatever it is, over and done with. Will just wait for results.

Busy doing notes for upcoming examinations. School>Home>Laptop>Sleep>Wake Up>Study+Homework>Laptop. Pretty much my daily routine and will be till EYE ends.

Everyone's drifting apart from me, or am I the one drifting apart from people? Guess it's me. It's okay, I'll survive.

Till the next time, xx

Love

2011-09-13T20:49:00.000+08:00

You just never know, as you breeze through life, what sort of lives the people you bump into have led.

Bestfriends when we were still in primary school. Separated from each other. Reunited back last year, and now we're as close as ever. Different school doesn't stop us from being bestfriends right? After every meet up or so, she'd facebook message me just to thank me for the wonderful day and I feel loved and treasured by her. That's probably everything I want from a friend.

Everyday would be full of the petty frustrations and annoyances that make up normal life. My life has been torn apart and I'm on the brink of losing everything, I've ever cared about. One moment everything seemed perfect, the next moment nothing did. I'm insecure, desperate all the time for reassurance, and now my life is in such a big mess, I didn't think I would be good enough for anyone else. I'm still making the effort to change for the better...

Be right back.

self-motivation

2011-09-09T15:04:00.000+08:00

Your words of motivation on my desktop, and a little self-motivation note for myself.

Words of motivation from anybody shall be posted on my desktop till EYE ends and I hope this will encourage me. Should stop lazing around and focus on my studies more. Motivation is probably the only thing I want as from now onwards from everybody but sometimes people just won't get what I'm hinting on.

I wish to hear the truth from you but I'm afraid because I know the truth hurts.

2011-09-07T12:01:00.000+08:00

Im so fucked up about everything. Really. EYE Timetable is out and I just realised it's less than a month's time. I don't even bother to study. I don't even bother to do anything about it. I want to study but I feel so lazy. I don't feel motivated. I cry easily when I think about my life, my studies, everything. How everything never turned out right.

I feel more hopeless day by day. Useless, worthless. It's always these three words. I keep telling myself to change, and do something about all these shits happening but I just find it useless. It's like no matter what I do, it'll remain the same or either get worse. I just want someone to talk to. Someone who can motivate me and tell me what's right and what's wrong. I don't even know what to do now. I hate this feeling and it has been lingering in me for too long.

Ouch.

2011-09-04T11:33:00.000+08:00

Friday morning, went to exzercisze w cousin. Walk from Kent Ridge Park all the way to Harbourfront. About 4 hours of walking. tiring but funnnnnnnn

1 week of holiday. I have a number of activities I wish to do but I need to study study study study. >:(

ANYWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

nak kinder bueno? YOU WANT? raya my house first. minta maaf smua dulu muahahahhaha. sape cepat de dapatttttttt ~ muahahahhahaaha

yeay i saw you on Thursday. Hahahhaha k dah byeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~

satu dua tiga

2011-08-31T21:38:00.000+08:00

HI SELAMAT HARI RAYA BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. NYEHEHEHEHE

Blue for this year. Last minute search for my baju raya and also kasut raya. My kasut raya is approximately 3.5 inches tall which is equivalent to 8.9cm? hehehe woo i love the feeling ~

School today, teachers' day celebration cum aces day cum charity bazaar tomorrow. Cant wait for school to end so I can go home and sleeeeeeeeeep. Nyehehehe

Okay I've got nothing much to say..

Selamat hari raya everybodehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

xoxo

2011-08-28T22:44:00.002+08:00

Deleted memories from this blog. From 2008 till somewhere in 2009. Keeping it for the sake of memories
Raya in 1 day time?
Saturday 27 August 2011 - went to Geylang to buy my baju raya. Went everywhere to find but I couldnt find the one I like so I ended up buying the last resort. lalalala home at 1130pm.
last minute, buying kasut raya tomorrow.

Honestly I don't know what to blog about anymore. Blogger is like so dead already Hahahaha okay see you when i see you

2011-08-09T13:35:00.001+08:00

Hi twentyon-ee!

NDP Celebration in school today. Extremely boring. It was more to a prize presentation ceremony than a celebration so probably that explains why. School ended at 10.30am. I would have skipped school yesterday, if I wasn't the mascot. Everything was not perfectly prepared so I end up wearing like that, total failure. But surprisingly, we were shortlisted despite the fact that we didnt had any explanation to why my class mascots were dressing up like that. HEHEHEEHE but at least I tried?

I actually wore red and white from top to bottom during the NDP Celebration. I feel soooooooooo.. enthusiastic? energetic? whatever the right word is. HEHEHEHE my hair looks cute on that day w two ponytails and ribbons. HEHEHEH okay till the next time.

Tata sexy people

HI

2011-08-05T17:31:00.000+08:00

HI TWENTYON-EE. SORRY FOR ABANDONING YOU.
Didn't realise the last time I posted something here was on 19th July.

So okay hello! Ramadhan is here! Extremely tired but will stay strong :) Wrnt to tarawih twice with Natasha, the girl in picture. ^^ Hehehe then we had ice kacang aft tarawih yesterday!

Today, gonna buka over at Marsya's house. Then, gonna go tarawih with her. :) Hehehe feels so nice to have friends who can go tarawih with you. <:

Nothing much to say tho. Will update soon Insyallah. ;) Oh, 3 days with no lessons. Whoop whoop. Monday - NDP Celebration in school , half day .
Tuesday - Public Holiday
Wednesday - School Holiday
Looks like I'm gonna plan something! Hehehe sexcitedddddd. Whoopwhoop. Okay gotta go, TTFN loveeelies

2011-07-19T00:26:00.000+08:00

I'm just tired. Tired of everything.

I just want to feel appreciated, just for once.

2011-07-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

MANE NAK DAPAT BROTHER CUTE MACAM GNIE.

Hahahaha. Hello! Been quite long since I last updated, oh no? Haha anyway, I think ask.fm closed down the website so all my past questions = gone. So much memories actually :( But it's okay! You can still ask thru my cbox >>

Hehe anyway! I've been going out for the whole of this week, after school. And today, I went to Johor. Tomorrow, going out again to kenduri. Fuh imma busy_girl this week. Extremely shagged

If you have twitter you can follow me, @twentyoneexx . Hehehe I've got nothing much to say.

Yet I act like everything that happens doesnt hurt me, honestly everything does. I just hate it when a relationship or connection ends, you become a total stranger with that person when back then you used to be that close. It's always been like that from the past, and even up till today. it just sucks

it's okay, a princess is always happy. I prefer being alone sometimes, I'm just tired of facing shits. Friends, family, studies, life. Enough is enough

princess xx, lub chu

2011-07-09T13:02:00.000+08:00

Last week Saturday - To Johor Bahru to watch Tranformer 3 with family

We have the same Transformers Tshirt Heheheh cute right! :P

My last week Sunday - After madrasah, met her and accompanied her shopping at town. Hehehe

And this is last two days , Thursday - Study date with cousin at JP Macd

hehehehehe

mch lv

still i'm broken inside

2011-06-30T21:04:00.001+08:00

I've learnt something recently. Those people who once played an important role in my life, who once gave me so much to remember will never come back. No matter how much I try, how much I tell them how I wish we can patch things back, they'll never come back. They might come back and talk to me once in a while, and then put my hopes up that we can patch things back to the way it was before. But who am I kidding again? They won't come back. No matter what they say, no matter what I do, they just won't. I should accept this fact and use it so I will hurt less. I don't want to be too attached to someone like I was back then. When you're too attached to someone, and they suddenly leaves, you'll feel insecure because you used to spend your days and time with them but all of a sudden, they just shut up and forget about you like you never meant anything to them. That's just life

Yet sometimes there's something inside me that tells me I should stay, and wait. But how much longer? I've been in this situation like alot of times. I don't want history to repeat itself again. I don't want to seem so weak. I once believed I was strong, but some boy that gave me so much to remember proved me wrong.

Today - 30 June 2011 marks my late grandmother's birthday (second from left). And I miss her so much. I asked my daddy to drive me to the cemetery last Sunday but he gave me an excuse that he was tired. :(( I hope to visit the cemetery this week tho. I've promised myself to visit the cemetery on my late grandmother's birthday as well as mine. :'(

hugs & kisses times infinity, i love you forever and always

2011-06-21T22:38:00.000+08:00

KL & PD was fine. Didnt expect much from that vacation but the important thing is, I went shopping at F21 and the best part is, twice HEHEHEHEH

I have nothing much to say. Sad part is school is reopening in a few days time. Another sad thing is, I've yet to complete my homeworks so yes Im dead. So much for wanting to complete the first two weeks of holiday eh Nrl Rshqh? Huhuhu

Okayyyyyyy I got nothing else to say hehehe tata!

2011-06-08T20:53:00.000+08:00

so tell me how do I be heartless, mean and a bitch

cause i'm tired of people taking me for granted

taking advantage of me

using me

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2011-05-31T23:23:00.003+08:00

My life is in a mess now, big one
nothing is right. everything's wrong
loner. damn how did I get myself into this shit

Last updated calender on: 14.06.11
~~18.05.11 - Mummy's Birthday~~
~~21.05.11 - BBQ with Mummy's side cum birthday celebration~~
~~25.05.11 - Haiqal's Birthday~~
~~28.05.11 - Gentarasa'11~~
~~29.05.11 - Buy apparel~~
~~30.05.11 - ECP with bestgirlfriend~~
~~31.05.11 - Work~~
~~1.06.11 - Daddy's Birthday/Work~~
~~11.06.11 - Family Gathering to Bowling~~
16.06.11 to 19.06.11 - KL & Port Dickson with cousins
24.06.11 - Out with cousin & her friends

Guess I'm working on days when I'm free. Why do I feel so lazy

2011-05-19T15:22:00.000+08:00

lots n lots of love ♥

pieces

2011-05-06T21:50:00.003+08:00

I'm just disappointed in myself, about everything.

Taken for granted.

purrrrrrrrrrrrr

2011-05-02T13:01:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, I went to Kota Tinggi.

And

it reminded me of you *looks below*

That guy,D.

Remember you went to Kota Tinggi on 14/11/09? Then remember what happened on 13/11/09?

happy 15th birthday to Nina Syafrina!

gucci gucci gugu gegerl lub chu xx

bye

2011-04-30T21:58:00.000+08:00

Bye April

Please be nice May,

gucci gucci gugu gegerl lub chu

2011-04-26T17:48:00.001+08:00

Shontelle- Say hello to goodbye

Fumigation going on at my house estate tomorrow, 27/4 from 10am to 4pm. Looks like I'm going home after 4pm. Where are you? You're suppose to save me from all these cockroaches. Hahahahaha fake xx dnny

Malay Paper 1 and 2 just now. No hope because I'm forever a failure in malay. No more hope and mood to study for other papers. Deactivated msn, tumblr, twitter, facebook and tagged. Maybe activating back facebook when mye ends, it all depends.

Drama, lies and tears.

Three cheers to the teenage years.

2011-04-21T17:54:00.004+08:00

a failure in everything

http://ask.fm/twentyonee

18th

xoxo

2011-04-08T20:14:00.000+08:00

currently revising AM. taking a breakkkkkk

tireddddddddd

MYE's coming in days.

First paper is in 12 days minus weekends.

Lots of mugging to be done, good luck gegerl. xx

have.to.do.well.for.MYE.

So I can relax, and activate back my facebook!! Hehehehee

Okay im gonna continue with my revision hehehe

till then,

see you when i see you

I remembered last year, after Sports Day, we talked. mch misses. :)

010411

2011-04-01T20:55:00.000+08:00

i shopped today! <:

rawrrrr

123

2011-03-21T23:00:00.001+08:00

I gotta face the fact that I'm not a princess, and I will never be anymore. I only have myself to blame for not accepting reality. Face it Nurul Rashiqah Bte Affendi, you're worser than shit.

I don't want to remember 21 anymore, I don't want to care. I don't want to remember dates that mean that much to me, because it gives me flashbacks about the past. I miss the past, I admit it.

This

shit

this

twoone, bye.

shuckieeeeeeeeeeeeee

2011-03-20T23:10:00.000+08:00

first semester results. suck at additional mathematics, malay and combined humans. im slacking like fuck. gotta buck up if i wish to go poly :( mdm suziela said, " like this, you better drop to NA take N levels and go to Higher Nitec rather than take O levels and go to Higher Nitec". Come on shiqahhh you can do it. I feel like dropping AM tho. :( Look at how many times I came late to school. What happened to my punctual dayssssssss arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

On the other hand, I'm back from Indonesia three days ago. 5 out of 10 for the whole trip because mdm rohima fucking spoiled my trip, plus i was short of cash to shop!! :< It's okay, what matters most is I had a better bonding between a few of my friends and I did enjoy myself somewhere during my journey. :)

Back to school tomorrow! I gotta buck up! Imma make my parents proudddddddddd. <: Insyallah.

xoxo 21 is tmr.

flowa gal

2011-03-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

bye singapore

bye lappy

bye bed

bye daddy

bye brothers

i love all of you times infinity

miss me heheheh xx

13

2011-03-06T23:06:00.000+08:00

In... exactly one week's time.

Off to Indonesia, so that means flight!! Which means, aeroplane. nyumnyumnyum

the last time i took the plane was..about 4 years back when I went to Brunei. HEHEHEHE

I don't know whether I should be excited.. But let's leave the excitement for later. ^^

But I'm disappointed in my mummy because she's putting stupid girl's birthday party her top priority for nw instead of my overseas trip. :< Her birthday party is in exactly 3 weeks time whereas my trip is next week!!

Oh okay why should I care I'm no longer princess in their eyes remember. Haa k

Soooooo..

Yesterday, I went to Marina Square>Bugis>Geylang>Tampines>Home. Pictures will be uploaded, soon.

And my CA results are all disappointing :<

Sec 3 academic life isnt easy but I'll survive, InsyaAllah. ;)

wait for my next update, tooodlessssssss! ^^v

http://ask.fm/twentyonee

DD

2011-02-27T11:45:00.001+08:00

♥

center boy. HEHEHEHEHE

26/02/11.

lalalalalalalalalalala he was the best highlight of my day again. HEHEHEH. ;) nyumnyumnyum

I sacrificed my time to go home, because I wanted to see you longer. I wished you'd talk to me, but sadly you didnt. We didnt make any eye contacts either. :') It's okay, the important fact is, i still love you. On 26/02/11, 17 months ago, we met. I remembered. I wish I could hug you yesterday tho. I miss you eventho I just saw you yesterday.

♥

mdba

2011-02-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

twentyone

ACD

2011-02-20T00:48:00.003+08:00

He, was the reason to my sudden smile just now. :)

So yea, that clearly explain why I suddenly smile and laugh to myself when I returned from the washroom. mcm very happy times infinity girl

Tho I had doubts about some stuffs, and I wasnt that satisfied, I guess I should be thankful I bumped into you just now after so long, to be exact, 6 months two weeks.

Today sucks tho, but bumping into you was one of the best highlight of the day. And I pray that your dad recovers fast. :)

I smiled when I saw you, I was pretty shocked. I didnt expect to bump into you, but God made me bump into you. It made my day but I wasnt really contented with what happened. But I learn to appreciate whatever. You told me a few times you miss me, but when we saw each other just now, you don't even show the slightest bit that you did miss me. How much it hurts, and how much I wanted to hug you just now. You didn't knew huh. Oh well, I love you still.... :')

f

2011-02-07T19:41:00.001+08:00

I don't wish to see that fat ugly bitch anymore everytime I look at the mirror.

I don't want to see those fats anymore. I want that perfect hour glass body.

I want abs so I can feeling2 sexy and wear bikini. CHEYYY!! HAHAHHAHAHA.

But I'm serious about the abs part k

Howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww? :(

sad girl times infinity alr

6 months

2011-02-06T19:45:00.001+08:00

I have to admit that question on my ask.fm broke my heart, times infinity. But seriously, what can I do? Plus, I don't even know myself if it's true. Not like anybody cares about this anyway.

On the other hand, today is 6th February. Marks the 6 month/half a year since I last saw you in person. I wonder why the feeling is still there despite not seeing you in person for sucha long time. Maybe, as the saying goes, Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

dr mhmmd dnl bn anr, why m stll wtng fr yr prsnc whn t's bvs tht y wnt b mn nymr. wht th fck s wrng wth me?!?!?!

wnt t cry bdly

29

2011-01-29T19:43:00.000+08:00

The moment you said you dreamt about me, it made me feel so much times infinity better. Knowing that I did cross your mind actually was enough to make my stay at Port Dickson alot better, and you saying that you were sad because of it. I'm like a stupid girl now smiling at myself and reading back our conversation over and over again to make sure I wasn't dreaming. Actually, when you chatted with me just by saying 'hye' made me smile like alot times infinity can?! HEHEHEHHE

For now, I'm really contented.

And I'm updating my blog just to express my feelings, MUAHAHHAHA. IMMA HAPPY GIRL

K dah mcm stupid girl bye

And, Happy 17th Anniversary MummyDaddy.

When's my turn? :(

MUAHAHAHHA

28

2011-01-28T19:59:00.000+08:00

Knowing the fact that I won't be in Singapore tomorrow kills me because my plan is ruined now. It's not the part whereby I'm going away from my home for a day or one and a half day that hurts, it's the part whereby my plan that I expected to be a success hurts. I was really looking forward to tomorrow, but now? No longer. I wish this plan didn't turn out this way. Being the very stupid me, I actually planned everything early, despite telling myself countless times that it is not good to plan things early because things might not work out. Look where it's got me into now. You can say I'm overreacting just because of a ruined plan, but do you know how much I actually looked forward to this date before things went haywire? This much. I tend to look forward to things, or events that I'm really keen to attend.

Actually, I think this short getaway was a pretty good idea. But sad for me, it fell on the wrong date. :( No point ranting about this anymore, because the decision is made and everyone's packing. The excitement isn't there yet. Oh well, I should really start packing and head to bed already since I told someone I am going to sleep at 530pm, but look at the damn time now, exactly 8pm. I need to sleep, have been lacking of sleep recently and now - running nose, phlegm, cough; Oh what more? I hope I'll get well soon tho because this phlegm in my throat is annoying me, and I wonder how can I get rid of it without spitting. If you love me, pray I'll recover soon k? k. k chantik. And, the best thing about today is, I didn't attend school! Marks my first time being absent from school for the year. macam pro

Like finally, a proper post! And you know something, secondary three life is killing me too. I have to buck up on my studies, like alot of catching up to do. Motivating myself to study, isn't as easy as motivating myself to sleep though. I've got alot of genius students in my class, and to make it worse, most of them are taking the same subjects as me, which means I have more competitors in my own class.

Okay farewell! Wait for my next post, most probably about my short getaway as well as my secondary 3 life :/ Alright good malam selamat night everybody!

Questions?
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2011-01-21T21:19:00.002+08:00

Meet 21.

It's still you, D.

and the best thing about today was, knowing that you actually did care about those dirty questions people ask me at my ask.fm. :)

precious

2011-01-18T20:57:00.001+08:00

Just the first 18 days for the year and I'm already facing alot of bullshits. That includes family, friends as well as myself.

You know I still like that certain someone so why do you keep assuming I'm having a relationship with your guy? And honestly speaking, I don't want to fight with you because of him and there was no intention/motive. But I'll leave our friendship to you, to destroy or to rebuild it. :')

Crushed.

2011-01-15T10:59:00.000+08:00

happy 6th birthday babyboy

i love you

2011-01-10T23:06:00.000+08:00

Someone once told me I'm a selfish person because I only think about my own feelings and not others'. I didn't give a damn about what he said to me at first, but after recalling every single thing this person mentioned, I think it's true. I only care about my own heartpains and happiness, and I simply don't care about others' emotions. I realised all this while when I experience heartbreaks, the other party didnt start the cause of the heartbreak, but.. me. I did. I was too self-centered.

I get it now. I'm a selfish, self-centered girl. Heartbreaker.

Taio Cruz - Break your heart

the best song from me to everyone who wishes to be friends with me that basically describes everything about me? somehow.

ha oh well. i dont expect anything from anybody because i know the final results will break my own heart.

farewell, and i miss the guy over at hk.

h-u-n-g-r-y

2011-01-09T19:23:00.000+08:00

imma hungry girl but i donwanna eat because im dieting in my dictionary, but starving myself in others'.

get me? ha oh well.

ice cream chocolate french fries

l

2011-01-06T22:15:00.002+08:00

Despite the fact tht today's surprise plan was a failure, I'm still a happy girl because you appreciated what I gave you. I'm satisfied enough. So, today marks the 5th month I've yet to see or bump into you. "Have been, will be." Remember what I told you earlier? I mean it. ;)

If you realised, your name is engraved on the inside of the ring. That's the only place it can be engraved so yea. ;)

Have a safe trip to hk, enjoy and takecare of yourself there. ;)

i love you, more everyday. and i miss you more too. ;')

2011-01-04T17:11:00.000+08:00

I keep forgetting to forget about you.

Happy Birthday Daniel. ;)

2011-01-02T00:14:00.002+08:00

Hi Muhammad Daniel Bin Anuar,
     Happy 18th Birthday. Hope you'll get your motor license asap. You want car, license, kahwin cepat and dpt due anak, jamban, and something that can be worn or seen everyday and last longing right? haha. hope you get all those. tell your nenek takmo blanje makan k. hahah. ;) enjoy your day yea. must be good boy k. AND STOP SMOKING :)

     sorry i put up this picture on my blog, i find this picture the best picture i took with you compared to the others. so yea, apologies. anw, go take a look at your blog. Before that, sorry. Apologies for not revealing myself on the phone at first. But, I'm still glad you did talk to me for 4 mins 32 seconds. Haha. ;)

     So okay, enjoy your day today. Happy Birthday Danny. ;)

Mch lv,
Puteri R.

p.s/ i love you still. :(

2010-12-26T22:52:00.000+08:00

Going to Desaru tomorrow

betta miss me k bye

summarizing

2010-12-26T22:04:00.000+08:00

makbapak de punye bus

today dec 26 - last minute plan

I WALK from my home to natasha's then to nina's then to jurong lake park. WALK WALK WALK.

then natasha became a lazy girl so went back by bus to jurong point

they took bus back home from jurong point whereas i walk back home.

IMMA PRO. HAHAHHAHA :P

yesterday dec 25

out with justin :)

movie was his treat. tron:legacy

300th

2010-12-25T11:38:00.001+08:00

met at 530. went to bugis. finished shopping yadayada by 7.15. didnt knw whr to go so this smart girl thought of buying nuggets and fry it at her house. but in the train, she changed her mind to go esplanade to take pictures. sadly, both our ezlink were dieing on us so change plan to henderson waves. she's a a smart girl because everytime we walk at a scary path, she'll automatically switch on her music player. but she's still my stupid girl and i love her because she's stupid enough to follow me to walk at the stupid path which is fucking dark and scary. but ok, we survive. saw nothing yeay! used her handphone flash as a source of light. take bus from harbourfront back to jurong point and home @11pm. HEHE i luv her.
this is one of the best parts when i fight with my parents. HHEHEHEHE

So, today marks 1 year I'm waiting for you. Maybe I've yet to learn how to let things go, but I will someday. But for now, I still love you. I don't care what others think anymore because I'm learning to be straight. I'm tired of trying to tell people I like a certain person, indirectly. Therefore, I promise myself I'll stay single till 17 cause I know now isn't the right time. People say, If you really love a certain someone, you'd wait for them. I know by getting in a relationship with someone else just to get over a certain someone won't make a difference because I've tried, and all my 5 attempts failed. In life, the test comes first, then lesson.In school, the lesson comes first, then the test. Patience is virtue ;)

2010-12-24T00:30:00.000+08:00

" eh senang kate break sudah. u kate u syg i be u prngi cam nie. " 24 Dec 2010, 10:17pm

HAHAHAHAH OK. So, why am I even remembering this? HAHAH ok nvrmind i knw why alr.

Time flewwwwwww, extremely fast. Don't you think so? ;)

Please make yourself free to ask me question

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cause im bored. clear your doubts! merepek questions will also be entertained ok thanks love you ;)

3

2010-12-21T00:53:00.001+08:00

The next thing you know, today's 21.

happy supposed-to-be 13th? ha what am i thinking.

fm static-moment of truth

Broken

2010-12-17T01:37:00.005+08:00

Just for once, I want people to be honest with me, about everything. Hearing the painful truth is definitely better than a beautiful lie. I get it, I'm a failure in everything. So, why am I still here?

confused girl

2010-12-15T01:03:00.006+08:00

Nak transfer school please?

AHAHAHAH k

i want to get something for a certain person's birthday but i dont know what so how HELP ME SOMEBODEH

k actually this person's birthday is next year but still it's in january and i'm suppose to panic because i've never gave a present to......... a guy haha ok i made it obvious i'm giving it to a guy but STILL help me somebodeh

just a friend k please

Anw just created ask.fm

didnt wanna create formspring cause i dont want people to go "sial ah zaman ble nk buat formspring" or "ikot2 org sak pki formspring NO ORIGINALITY." HAHAHAH omg what am i thinking HAHAH so ask.fm it is.

I've got nothing to update because I've been busy with work. I'll blog when I've got pictures and story to tell, most probably tomorrow or the following day? Hehe okay i love you all bye

Ask me please, click (scroll down)

HERE

HEHEHEHEHE I LOVE YOU ALL NYETNYET BLUEK BYE

play it

2010-12-10T23:45:00.004+08:00

If I had the power to read people's mind, I guess life would be better for me now.

I love reminiscing about the past. Probably because, I'm glad those memories are still with me. People say, reminiscing will only hurt you because you'll realise that things change and you want the life you had before. Well, for me, I think reminiscing is good because you'll realise how much life has change for you, and in what way you can do to make it better, or right again. You learn from your mistake when you start comparing your life before and after. Reminiscing is good, it'll make you realise how great life is meant to be.

Honestly, I miss how things used to be. Yeah, I used to wish that I can get back what I once had. But what was I thinking back then? It's already over. Nothing can be change, what's done you can't undo. No point regretting, you'll end up hurting yourself even more. The only way is to make things better and be mentally and physically prepared for the future and make it like how you want it to be.

And one more thing......

Did you realise, people come and go? Start reminiscing.

I just miss certain people who used to play an important role in my life, but I'm taking no effort to make things right back again because I know it will never be like before, no matter how much I try. I'll only get hurt if the results isnt what I expected it to be. I have to expect the unexpected.

We got to live life the way we want it to be and not care about what people say. People only find faults with you just to bring you down, because they know you're better and ahead of them in a way. Be bless with what you have now because you're fortunate. If you think you're not, perhaps you wanna book a flight to Africa and stay there for a week. When you come back, tell me which you prefer. We have to be thankful with what we have because one day, it'll all just disappear and vanish from your life, forever.

DP

2010-12-09T23:50:00.004+08:00

I love his cheeks.

I love his face.

I love his dimples.

I love his smile.

I love his hair.

I love his body smell.

I love how he tries to play my hair.

I love how he can make me smile.

I love it when he starts acting cute.

I love it when he starts to sulk.

I love to see him sulk.

I love how he reacts when he expects to be coax.

I love how he try to make fun out of something.

I love how he expects to be pampered.

Lastly, I love him.

2010-12-07T08:21:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, it's the smallest decision or mistake that can pretty much change your life forever.

2010-12-02T21:47:00.003+08:00

Who am I kidding, I still love you.

1

2010-12-01T18:52:00.002+08:00

A start of a month, and I found myself in a conflict.

I don't know if it's just me who thinks this way but, we're all broken. We're no longer standing strong as a clique. I'm sorry if you felt abandoned, but I didn't abandon you. You're still standing strong as my bestfriend and sister for life despite the fact that I was being backstabbed and you forgot about an important date. Just that maybe I'm not playing the same role in your life. You can ask me why I thought you were referring to me, but I was born with brains that are functioning and I can tell. It's obvious. And to the other girl, running away from us won't solve the problem and make your life more peaceful. A real friend is someone who confronts you, so you should be thankful one of us did confront you about your behaviour eventho it hurts. A real friend wants the best for their own friend.

Well, I don't wish to be a complain princess and rant out whatever I feel here, because some people might think I'm an attention seeker. Haha oh well, this is life.

Till then,

29

2010-11-29T19:21:00.009+08:00

today went to jp with natasha to survey cameras. actual motive is to eat, but in the end we used up our money to take neoprint. lame right but who the fuck cares HEHEHEHE

i cant wait for work to end somehow so i can get my pay and go shopping and have fun. ive got alot of upcoming plans sexcited girl HEHEHE

on the other hand, november is going to end! which is extremely fast for me! maybe because most of the days im occupied with something. work, religious class, outings. HEHEHE k end of story

have you ever had that feeling whereby all you really want to do is shut off all the unwanted thoughts that has been keeping you awake every night and made you cry each time you think about it?

2010-11-25T20:04:00.002+08:00

Rapunzel 3d with them today much loves to them xx

sad girl alert

2010-11-23T22:06:00.002+08:00

I always expect the best for people, but no one expects the best for me. Sometimes, I wonder why do I care so much about people, when they don't even give a fuck care about me.

My mum actually told me, the best place to visit when you feel lonely or maybe depressed and all you really want to do is die, is the cemetry. If you ask me why, maybe because when you're there, you know you don't wish to die. You don't want to be like the people who left the world earlier, stuck down there and their presence is not visible to us. And to me, they're the only one I can talk to when I have no one else to turn to. The feeling you get when you stepped into a cemetry, is completely different.

You may think I'm stupid. You can tell me and comment at my tagboard that a stupid girl like me would only do this. I bet you have yet to try this, but I've done this. I did it on my birthday to visit my late grandmother's grave. You can also tell me I'm stupid to visit such a place on a birthday. A birthday is meant to be a happy celebration but I'm making myself tear instead. But, I never visited her grave eversince she passed away which was three years ago. That's why I intended to do so.

I really should stop blabbering and start being happy already. If you did read till the end, do tag at my tagboard please! At least I know somebody is reading my shit. HAHAHAHHAHA okay goodbye! Till then xx

fuck 21 pls

2010-11-21T23:04:00.007+08:00

The reason why I don't look forward to my birthday, is because of the memories that was left behind a year ago. It's been a year, wow.

Ok, moving on to a new chapter now please.

Should I blabber to you about what I did on my birthday? Haha. Ok no, I'm afraid I'll be long-winded and nobody wants to read anymore. :(

So, ok. Frankly speaking, I wasn't excited at all, not even a bit. All I did was cry cry cry cry cry, alot of reasons actually. I've been crying for the past four days, alot of reasons la ok. I don't want to tell you BLUEK.

Oh, I wish to thank every single human being that wished me happy birthday, be it through phone, facebook or even blog! Thank you so very to the much. Much appreciated. Love all of you to the maximum CAN XX.

Okay, to end of my post. I wish to ask your opinion! Leave your answers at the tagboard please, will appreciate every opinion given! Be it good or bad.
How would you feel if someone, whom you regard as your bestfriend and sister, forgot about your birthday, and didn't even wish you?

1

2010-11-20T16:51:00.005+08:00

"takmo bukak nari tau. besok baru bukak. lau you bukak nari, maknenye you tk syg i."

I remembered you told me this when you came down to my house estate area to pass me my birthday present, last year, exactly on this date.

Much misses actually, but oh well.

2

2010-11-19T22:21:00.004+08:00

"Rejection is part of life. Learn to accept and move on. Always remember that some things are not meant to be. "

i love you dot com

2010-11-15T20:29:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, I wish to die. Cause, I wanna know who will care, cry and miss me once I'm gone from this world, forever.

FUCK 13

2010-11-13T23:58:00.002+08:00

FEELING2 PUTERI BUNGE SEKEJAP. :D

Thursday, had bbq at ECP with only 12 ppl instead of the whole class. sounds ubber boring but actually it was ubber funn yknow! <: Hui Xin, Su Ping, Jade, Rachel, Ying Yu, Joseph, Nina, Shahila, Shaiful, Fauzan as well as another guy from Sec 1(can't remember his name HEE). Oh, plus Hilmi who only came down at 8! Thanks to him too for helping us clean up the pit, and thanks for waiting for us to get changed too! HEHEHEHE! <: Supposedly, home at 11.50pm. But then, everybody was asleep by then and had to wait for whoever to open the door for 9 damn minutes. 1 more min before midnight, my mum opened the door. Imagine I stand outside the door, switch on the mp3 but didnt listen to it, keep on pressing the bell for 9 continuos minutes, and keep a look out of what's around me. Scary okok. What made it worse, my house is beside the staircase. Grrrrr. Scareded girl dot com sekejap. Imagination wild. Surprisingly, mummy tak marah! I told her I'll be home before 10 because the next day I had to work, but we all made a move from ECP at 9.30pm! Ok I'm long-winded. HAHHAHAHA k next story time

Today(Saturday), went out with sedare. Ion>Promenade>Plaza Singapura>Far East Plaza>Cathay>313@Somerset>Jurong Point>Home @ 10.30pm

FUH TIRED GIRL DOT COM CAN.

Sooooooooooooooooooo. I tell you something k? Imma bitch, imma flirter, imma very-to-the-maximum-to-the-extreme-ugly girl so ya ok. I tell you alr right? Don't be friends with me ok. :) I'd rather be a loner than have fake friends? Eh? Heh. :) That's why I don't have a real boyfriend up till today, and I can't win the guy I love so the the extreme to the maximum to the very to the muchie. So ya, I've come to my senses. You may spam my tagboard about me being an ugly shit for all I care, <:

And, Today is 13th November. On this date, last year, something happened. Between daddy, mummy, me as well as you. Remember? It was about my phone. I miss you anw. I hate this date. Because of this, we had problems contacting and all. Did you remember, the day after this date, last year, you went to Kota Tinggi for your NCC trip. I miss you, very much. Even after a year..

I still hope you're reading my blog, eventho I get crappy all the time. Because, this is the only place I can tell you what's going on, what I feel and I write about you almost all the time. You should know who you are. :)

Next year, class 3e5. Not same class as dearest, most importantly. :( Sadded girl alr.

In dealing with backstabbers, there's one thing I've learned. Those bitches are only powerful, when my back is turned. :)

OK LA I LONG WINDED ALR HAHAHAHHA WAIT FOR MY NEXT UPDATE. :DDDDD

BYE LOVE YOU

confessions of a broken heart

2010-11-08T22:12:00.006+08:00

The way I'm feeling is hard to describe.
I feel lost and alone in this unbearable life.

Looking back on everything,

I still remember his smile.

Every single thing about him,

I miss, alot.

No matter how much it hurts,

I still love him so.

A part of me needs him,

can't seem to let him go.

Knowing I won't be able to see him,

makes my heart cry out the pain.

But knowing that I don't mean a thing to him,

makes the pain more insane

I'm always afraid to bump into him,

because I'm terrified of what he's gonna say

but i want to see him and his smile,

caues it will make my day.

I know tomorrow will hurt,

But the tears will fade away.

Life is too short for regrets,

There will be a brighter day.

I just wish I can tell him the truth,

that I still love and miss him.

Despite everything that has occured,

it's still him at the end of the day

Dear You,

I don't know what's so special about you that made me love you, up till today. Sometimes, I wonder why do I keep holding on when I know I don't stand a chance anymore. I don't expect you to love or care for me. I just want you to know how exactly I feel. It's okay if we remain friends or even enemies, cause one day I'll move on. I know the truth is ugly, but I got to face reality. So, I wish to see you smile always, even if the smile wasn't meant for me. For whatever happens, I'm always here. :')

Takecare.

a new start.

2010-11-01T20:42:00.004+08:00

1st November 2010.

A new month, A new workplace, A new me. :)

First day of work = awesome! :> Nutella, Ferrero Rocher, Tic Tac, Kinder Bueno. You want?! :D HEHEHEHEHE. The place, damn beautiful. You craving for the chocolates or not?! nyenyenye. There's also Starbucks, located at the groundfloor of the building. The cashier actually gave me a muffin and a chocolate chip frappe(?) or whatever that coffee-free drink is called, when I only ordered a chocolate chip frappe(?)! So all in all, I got two drinks and a muffin to enjoy! So nice of the cashier, and also the workers at Starbucks!

HEHEHEEH. Make me want to work there forever. But, I'm only working there for approximately two weeks. So, yeah. :( That's a sad thing for me. Mummy said, I can actually finish everything by one week from what she observes cause my working pace is fast. Which is also equals to, lesser salary. :( But, it's okay! What matters is, I enjoyed the job, I got a working experience and I get to see and eat chocolates everyday!! HAHAH. Fake. I'm not craving for them cause I've been eating that same damn chocolate eversince mummy works there. NYET.

I shall be a happy girl starting from today. :) You'll see! ^^ HEHEHEHEHE

princess xoxo

fml

2010-10-29T11:28:00.003+08:00

Today is 291010. Last year, exactly on this date, I met a guy. And, I'm still in love with him up till today. :) I miss him actually, like alot. The last time I saw him was on 6th August, if I'm not mistaken. I remembered we plan to meet a few days ago, but failed. You told me we'll meet the following day or so, but up till today, nothing came. But, it's okay. I understand you're busy with your life therefore I won't disturb you, or talk to you first. :) I'll only wait patiently for you to make the first move. Oh, and if youre reading this, don't talk to me just to satisfy me, but because you want to.:)

So, yesterday was the last day of school. It was Sufia's and Fitri's last day with us. Saddening much. :( What made it worse was knowing that Sufia didn't attend school. I was expecting her presence out of all since she didn't attend school at all this week. She went to Malacca without informing me. :( Sadded. Hi Sufia, once you've come back from Malacca, meet me yea. I miss you very much. Oh, hugged Fitri before she left us. She cried but I didn't. Shahila actually called me heartless, but I'm not. I just can't cry :( :(

okay yadayada. I want to go to Sentosa Spooktacular, which is this coming Saturday/Sunday. But sadly, nobody wants to go part 1. Maybe having family gathering part 2. I have no money part 3. So, I'm a sad girl. HHHAHAHA. Anyway, November is coming = my birthday is coming!! I don't really know if I should be excited because part 1, my birthday brings back memories. Part 2, I have madrasah exams on that day which means I can't skip and I can only go out after that. Part 3, I bet nobody will remember my birthday. Even if they remember, it will be all thanks to Facebook. Part 4, I don't have a boyfriend. NYET NYET.

HAHAH. I told myself to stay single and enjoy life till 17. People say it's impossible for me, but I hope so not. I hope I can prove them wrong, but I want to have a boyfriend during my birthday. I always want to be attached during my birthday but I know this time round, it's impossible for me. I'm an ugly girl, therefore I understand if I'm single for my birthday or worst, for life. BUT ITS OKAYYYYY. Okay, before I become an emoshit girl, I'll stop whatever I'm saying. FML

I'm gonna start back blogging since holidays are here. <: Wait ok for my next update. Heeeeeeeee imma princess princess is me ^^v

ACD

2010-10-21T19:26:00.009+08:00

i've been trying to forget you
trying to get you out of my life
but after all this time
i can't help myself but miss you

you're once a dream that came true
an illusion that turned to reality
but suddenly, things turned out differently
till i had no choice but to let you go

you're the reason for my sleepless nights
cause you keep staying on my mind
i cant help myself from crying
cause im missing you so much

all the pains and sadness are bound inside my heart
all the memories are still preserve in my mind
i miss you so much
and i cant hide the fact that i'm still in love with you

i thought i'd never lose you
i thought you'd always be there
i thought i'm your only one
but what i thought, are just wishes not meant to be fulfilled

i thought i wouldnt miss you
but i just proved myself wrong
i realised that i'm always at the verge of breaking down
here are my feelings, just a few

first, im still in love with you, after all this time
you once told me the same thing, but then left me
time has passed, everyday you're on my mind
i guess your love is with someone else now, what a bind

i admit im jealous, but nothing can be changed
it was meant to be like this so face it
the pain of losing you is still fresh in my brain
even after almost a year, everyday my heart still feels the pain

it still hurts me to know we're no longer together
when it's almost a year ago
don't hate me for this
afterall, it's all about you

A simple hi from you, will definitely make my day better.

2 to the 1, i miss you.

princess xoxo

a.c.d

2010-10-20T18:50:00.002+08:00

vivo>henderson waves>clarke quay>plaza singapura>the cathay>home

p.s; today is 20102010. :)

proper update soon? :D

xx
princess

to somebody whom i used to label as mdba

2010-10-05T18:37:00.003+08:00

please stop being a busybody in my life. you're just my past, remember? stop your fucking behaviour. it's seriously none of your fucking business. i got over you already, so yeah. myob

Puteri R.

2010-09-27T19:19:00.004+08:00

you know one thing that I miss having most? A boyfriend.

2010-09-18T20:58:00.007+08:00

mate i cute, i tau xD

Thanks Nurshahila , Nina Syafrina and Muhd Nur Riduan ^^v

17.09.2010 - went to Singapore Flyers. Supposedly, meet up at 7.30pm. End up, Shahila arrived at 8.15pm. Had 5 tickets, but only 4 went. Had to throw the spare ticket since nobody could tag along. Well, not exactly nobody actually .. HAHA. So, by coincidence(sort of), all four wore black. :D

So, arrived City Hall. Walked towards Singapore Flyers. Thanks to Wan, we took a longer route. HAHA. So.. tit tat tot and we were in the capsule. Zip zap zop, the ride ended. Had fun, pictures taken. Walked back to City Hall MRT. Took the train back, reached home @ 12.15am .

Tiring day dot com .

What more can I say? They made my day. :) ♥

More pictures at facebook :DD

you,

2010-09-14T21:26:00.002+08:00

I wished you'd been careful with my heart, but you tore it apart and broke a princess's heart.

I have high expectations, and you don't meet mine.

2010-09-07T10:46:00.004+08:00

Dear You Guys ♥ ,

Why do we miss a person? It's either because we realize that we never treasured the moments when they were always there and it left us wishing we could turn back time again. Or we were too happy with them, we enjoyed every single moment, that we became so used to the idea of having them around.

Therefore, I admit I miss you guys so very much.
Nurshahila, Natasha, Nina, Sufia, Riduan and even Umaira ♥

Sorry if I've been such a pain in the ass, but I couldn't take the joke the other day. Every joke has a limit. Maybe you guys wanna try putting yourself into my shoes and feel the embarrassment? I still miss every single one of you. I miss talking and laughing at Shahila's dumbness. I miss storytelling with Natasha. I miss laughing at the slightest thing with Nina. I miss Sufia's craps. I miss sharing stories and chatting with Riduan. I miss talking to Umaira. Most importantly, I miss all of you ♥

Oh, i miss him too ^^ ♥
i know you know - huakkhuakkk !

till then .

Love,

Puteri R.

drench yourself in words unspoken

2010-08-30T21:23:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

It hurts me to know that my friend is being hurt by somebody, and I can't do anything to help. I don't mind sacrificing my own happiness for somebody else as long as they're happy. I mean it :)

I won't give up, no I won't break down, sooner than it seems life turns around. And I will be strong, even if it all goes wrong. :)

Oh, p.s/ you won't see me updating till I've got events etc. to post about :D

Your princess,

Puteri R.

21

2010-08-21T20:28:00.003+08:00

Dear MDBA,

Remember me? I once meant something to you.

I wonder what's so special about you that I find it really hard to move on.

I guess I just need a little more time to be officially over you, just a little more.

I'm a princess, I should be happy. :)

Sincerely,

Puteri R.

20/08/2010

2010-08-20T22:44:00.007+08:00

Dear You,

All this while, I try to make you happy and be there when you needed someone.But I'm just not being appreciated, after all the sacrifices I've been through for you.

Frankly speaking, it hurts alot, but it's okay ♥

Yours truly,
Puteri R.